...Kai Lun~
I Miss YOU~~~
SORRY.....
our love is between 10.12.2012~07.01.2012
He live in negeri Pahang, and I live in Sabah~
I know... I know the distances love can't stand long anymore... but I really Love him...
刘凯伦。。。
这是我第一次在部落格提到你。。。
你好吗？
那天晚上你的分手讯息很突然。。。
告诉你我不哭是假的～
离开你后，我三天没吃没喝。。。
后来是朋友逼我，我才吃～
他们都说你是玩我的。。。可是我没这么认为过～
都怪我们都在错的时间遇上彼此。。。
你的狠心我明白～就连面子书你都不让我做你的朋友。。。
或许是我的执着让你不知所措了吧。。。
对不起～
你在立卑过得好吗？
你有女朋友了对吧？？
她。。。很可爱～
祝你幸福。。。
我。。。还爱你～
可是这次我不会等你了。。。
你曾问过我。。。放手不好吗？
那。。。好吧～
我放开你。。。
Thanks for you LOVED me...
Thanks for you CARED me...
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Monday, October 17, 2011
你没想过的问题
你，可以说我小气。
你，可以说我自以为是。
你也可以说我丑，说我肥，说我人不像人，鬼不像鬼。
可是，"朋友"~
在你们还没说我不三不四之前，试问你自己，
ARE YOU THAT GOOD ENOUGH ?
I admit,我自以为是。
I admit,我小气。
I admit,我丑，我肥。
可是，你没想过的问题远远多过我没想过的问题。
1）你有过一位超越四年的好朋友吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾信任过任何人）
2）你有主动向你朋友道歉过吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾把朋友放在心里面）
3）你有为好友而哭，为她而烦吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾在乎这份友谊）
4）你有否旧好友主动关心你吗？
（若没有，证明你没有关心过朋友）
我没针对任何一个人，只是在你们讲我自以为是，嘴巴欠之前，试问你自己是否犯过同样的错。
在你跟我说做回普通朋友时，已经确定了你早已经放弃了这一切~
就算我再挽回，一切已没有用了。
When the time you break your true friendship one day ,
You will know what I'm feeling now .
Like now I felt what Eli feeling by that time ~
你，可以说我自以为是。
你也可以说我丑，说我肥，说我人不像人，鬼不像鬼。
可是，"朋友"~
在你们还没说我不三不四之前，试问你自己，
ARE YOU THAT GOOD ENOUGH ?
I admit,我自以为是。
I admit,我小气。
I admit,我丑，我肥。
可是，你没想过的问题远远多过我没想过的问题。
1）你有过一位超越四年的好朋友吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾信任过任何人）
2）你有主动向你朋友道歉过吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾把朋友放在心里面）
3）你有为好友而哭，为她而烦吗？
（若没有，证明你不曾在乎这份友谊）
4）你有否旧好友主动关心你吗？
（若没有，证明你没有关心过朋友）
我没针对任何一个人，只是在你们讲我自以为是，嘴巴欠之前，试问你自己是否犯过同样的错。
在你跟我说做回普通朋友时，已经确定了你早已经放弃了这一切~
就算我再挽回，一切已没有用了。
When the time you break your true friendship one day ,
You will know what I'm feeling now .
Like now I felt what Eli feeling by that time ~
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
我的童年。。好开心
奶奶，三叔，三婶，四叔，四婶(lUCY姐），妈咪（大姑姑）和小叔（彬彬或jacky or lao sou or 徐世忠）
我很想你们~
对不起，现在我还不能与你们联系。可是再等多两年多吧，
我向你们保证~我一定会饮水思源的。
若是没有你们的陪伴，我的童年不会如此的精彩~
我不知你们能否看见我的部落格，可是我还是要说一声
谢谢！！
过了好久，当我重新翻开我小时候的相册时。。好激动！
我知道我很笨，可是我至少能了解到一句话就是~
当你失去时才知道它的重要，才想后悔为何不去珍惜~
过去的时光如此美好。可我也只能回忆~
好像再试一次，被疼的感觉；
被关心的感觉；
被看重的感觉；被爱的感觉~
我~15岁了。。可是我真的好想回到两三岁的日子~
回首~当时真的好幸福。。。
还记得我一岁时，奶奶常带我到Hotspring去泡温泉，
印象不太深刻，可是至少我还记得，
Hotspring的水可以煮鸡蛋叻~！ 嘻嘻
我三岁了，当时是奶奶的生日~说实在的~我。。不记得了。。
我看到照片才知道曾在kolombong的旧家为奶奶庆生~对不起！
哦~~那个卷卷头发的是二姑姑，站着的是大姑姑也是妈咪哦！~
切蛋糕的是奶奶~旁边的？哈哈~当然是我咯~！ 可爱吗？
这应该是我四岁吧~在爷爷的卡啦OK里~哈哈~还记得我每次都有洋娃娃可以带回家哦~不只一个叻~在我旁边那个是二爷爷~就是他送我的咯~有WINNIE THE POOL，MICKEY MOUSE，MINI MOUSE，MASHI MARO AND 很多~开心~哦！ 还有！在我背后光头的就是彬彬啦~哈哈~可爱叻他~！
Yeah！幼儿园毕业了~我们这班有表演~但是忘记了是什么名字~ Pai se..xP
这是我三年级参加歌唱比赛的照片~还记得这一真子三叔都一直支持我~帮我选歌选了外婆的澎湖湾。每天王上都到三叔房间练唱~我身上穿的露背装是三叔买给我的，叫上穿的低跟鞋是三婶买的~ 但是最后没进半决赛~好失望，觉得对不起他们~
唉！如今自剩下回忆 T.T
回想起童年~好开心！
或许我在Kinarut 是就该听你们的话，不选择到这里~
如今后悔末及~
好像再变美；
在唱歌；
在跳舞；
再穿美丽的衣服；
再打扮自己。。
都不信了~
徐雪琴，在挨多两年吧~！一切将会回到原点的~
至少我学会了在痛苦中找回自己；找回自信~
坎坷的路是让人成长；
先苦后甜才是真正的快乐~
人生最美的是曾经有你们的陪伴。。
我爱你们~永远的家人~！T.T
我很想你们~
对不起，现在我还不能与你们联系。可是再等多两年多吧，
我向你们保证~我一定会饮水思源的。
若是没有你们的陪伴，我的童年不会如此的精彩~
我不知你们能否看见我的部落格，可是我还是要说一声
谢谢！！
过了好久，当我重新翻开我小时候的相册时。。好激动！
我知道我很笨，可是我至少能了解到一句话就是~
当你失去时才知道它的重要，才想后悔为何不去珍惜~
过去的时光如此美好。可我也只能回忆~
好像再试一次，被疼的感觉；
被关心的感觉；
被看重的感觉；被爱的感觉~
我~15岁了。。可是我真的好想回到两三岁的日子~
回首~当时真的好幸福。。。
还记得我一岁时，奶奶常带我到Hotspring去泡温泉，
印象不太深刻，可是至少我还记得，
Hotspring的水可以煮鸡蛋叻~！ 嘻嘻
我三岁了，当时是奶奶的生日~说实在的~我。。不记得了。。
我看到照片才知道曾在kolombong的旧家为奶奶庆生~对不起！
哦~~那个卷卷头发的是二姑姑，站着的是大姑姑也是妈咪哦！~
切蛋糕的是奶奶~旁边的？哈哈~当然是我咯~！ 可爱吗？
这应该是我四岁吧~在爷爷的卡啦OK里~哈哈~还记得我每次都有洋娃娃可以带回家哦~不只一个叻~在我旁边那个是二爷爷~就是他送我的咯~有WINNIE THE POOL，MICKEY MOUSE，MINI MOUSE，MASHI MARO AND 很多~开心~哦！ 还有！在我背后光头的就是彬彬啦~哈哈~可爱叻他~！
Yeah！幼儿园毕业了~我们这班有表演~但是忘记了是什么名字~ Pai se..xP
这是我三年级参加歌唱比赛的照片~还记得这一真子三叔都一直支持我~帮我选歌选了外婆的澎湖湾。每天王上都到三叔房间练唱~我身上穿的露背装是三叔买给我的，叫上穿的低跟鞋是三婶买的~ 但是最后没进半决赛~好失望，觉得对不起他们~
唉！如今自剩下回忆 T.T
回想起童年~好开心！
或许我在Kinarut 是就该听你们的话，不选择到这里~
如今后悔末及~
好像再变美；
在唱歌；
在跳舞；
再穿美丽的衣服；
再打扮自己。。
都不信了~
徐雪琴，在挨多两年吧~！一切将会回到原点的~
至少我学会了在痛苦中找回自己；找回自信~
坎坷的路是让人成长；
先苦后甜才是真正的快乐~
人生最美的是曾经有你们的陪伴。。
我爱你们~永远的家人~！T.T
Monday, May 9, 2011
Give up already?
Hi, everyone...long time no blogging~Haha..
Whintin this many days and weeks...
Many things has happened~
Day by day...
Maybe I really realized that~
My hurt already gone...
Don't know how and don't know why...?!
When I click in my FB, open 'his' profile...
...No feel... He now~ very happy...
Normally within last 2 and 3 years,
I saw his profile and picture or photo...
Heart will bleeding...Obviously~ that time I'm still in HURT~
But now...NO~~
When hiss photo appear on my "Home Info"~
Nothing react~~
I really hope and admit
I'm FREE now~~
3 years gone,
years past year...I realized~
When two person got feel... But,
Not sure they will be together...
For now...I like another "Him"
When my buddies ask me "Why"?
... ... I don't know... @,@~~
But I scare~ scare to like a person again~!
Scare in hurt!
Scare to cry!
So I will not tell him "I like him"
Just like it go "Naturally~~"!
I Believe that him might know~
I LIKE HIM...
But~ I also sure that,
He will not got any feeling~
...This not important to me now...
I never hope that I will couple...
Because~ I scare in hurt anymore~~
But if he like me, I'll hope so much...
But...This...I think~~ WON"T... T,T~~~
Haiy...Winnie~Winnie~
When can you Focus on you "hands work" nia?
- I don't know...
To me~ My words to myself is~
TODAY WILL BETTER THAN YESTERDAY ^^
Whintin this many days and weeks...
Many things has happened~
Day by day...
Maybe I really realized that~
My hurt already gone...
Don't know how and don't know why...?!
When I click in my FB, open 'his' profile...
...No feel... He now~ very happy...
Normally within last 2 and 3 years,
I saw his profile and picture or photo...
Heart will bleeding...Obviously~ that time I'm still in HURT~
But now...NO~~
When hiss photo appear on my "Home Info"~
Nothing react~~
I really hope and admit
I'm FREE now~~
3 years gone,
years past year...I realized~
When two person got feel... But,
Not sure they will be together...
For now...I like another "Him"
When my buddies ask me "Why"?
... ... I don't know... @,@~~
But I scare~ scare to like a person again~!
Scare in hurt!
Scare to cry!
So I will not tell him "I like him"
Just like it go "Naturally~~"!
I Believe that him might know~
I LIKE HIM...
But~ I also sure that,
He will not got any feeling~
...This not important to me now...
I never hope that I will couple...
Because~ I scare in hurt anymore~~
But if he like me, I'll hope so much...
But...This...I think~~ WON"T... T,T~~~
Haiy...Winnie~Winnie~
When can you Focus on you "hands work" nia?
- I don't know...
To me~ My words to myself is~
TODAY WILL BETTER THAN YESTERDAY ^^
-END-
Monday, April 4, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Hi...Long time no blogging..
Today have something that I really can't to keep in my heart
It's very hurt for me...
This sunday,
I saw somebody that I'm not suppost to see..
Nevermind..
If I just saw him~
But besides he was somebody(girl)..
In easier,I knew that they are coupling
so very normal if I saw this...
But
but don't know why!
He or they just stand in front on me,
my first act is turn my head back~
I don't want to face them? NO!
From last time SPM result out,
I very think to see him~
But why when "two of them",
I can't look forward?
I still remember their emotion...
She hug his waist,he hug her shoulder
and
smile sweetly together...
OMG~!
WINNIE SHI!! WAKE UP!!!
OF COZ they will do like this!
They are couple! what do you hurt for?
You're not dare to jealous~!
Not dare to hurt!
Not dare to cry!
Stupid!!!!
Why am I crying for?
He never like me!!
OMG~!!
Promised forgot him,
but why when I saw them,
I want to cry?...
I admit when they in front of me,
I turn back and fell tears...
Luckily,
My dad and stepmum not at there...
SO funny...
why cry?
He didn't see me..
Even though he saw me also nothing will happen!
Now,
she is his GF~
Who am I?
Not any else to him,
even is passed,
now and further!
Saw him,cry!
At car-park,cry!
back home,cry!
Before sleep,cry!...
Are my tears so easy to fall off?
HAIY~ I tell you!
THIS IS THE THING THAT ONLY STUPID "AS ME"
WILL DONE IT FOR A BOY THAT NEVER CARES
FOR HER!!!
Today have something that I really can't to keep in my heart
It's very hurt for me...
This sunday,
I saw somebody that I'm not suppost to see..
Nevermind..
If I just saw him~
But besides he was somebody(girl)..
In easier,I knew that they are coupling
so very normal if I saw this...
But
but don't know why!
He or they just stand in front on me,
my first act is turn my head back~
I don't want to face them? NO!
From last time SPM result out,
I very think to see him~
But why when "two of them",
I can't look forward?
I still remember their emotion...
She hug his waist,he hug her shoulder
and
smile sweetly together...
OMG~!
WINNIE SHI!! WAKE UP!!!
OF COZ they will do like this!
They are couple! what do you hurt for?
You're not dare to jealous~!
Not dare to hurt!
Not dare to cry!
Stupid!!!!
Why am I crying for?
He never like me!!
OMG~!!
Promised forgot him,
but why when I saw them,
I want to cry?...
I admit when they in front of me,
I turn back and fell tears...
Luckily,
My dad and stepmum not at there...
SO funny...
why cry?
He didn't see me..
Even though he saw me also nothing will happen!
Now,
she is his GF~
Who am I?
Not any else to him,
even is passed,
now and further!
Saw him,cry!
At car-park,cry!
back home,cry!
Before sleep,cry!...
Are my tears so easy to fall off?
HAIY~ I tell you!
THIS IS THE THING THAT ONLY STUPID "AS ME"
WILL DONE IT FOR A BOY THAT NEVER CARES
FOR HER!!!
Monday, January 17, 2011
如何去恨你 ?
明天的明天 让我反复地想起
我们的承诺 ...
恨一个人， 难吗？
或许好容易 ...
可是，恨一个深爱的人 ... 并不容易~~
我曾尝试过，
放手，流泪；
心痛，想念；
痛恨，舍不得 . . .
最后 ... 还是无奈的无法自拔 ~
曾恨过，又怎样呢？
如果真恨过 ...
会舍不得吗？
会想念吗？
会心痛吗？
心好痛 ! ! ! !
我的心在滴血 !
你知道吗？
若知道! 你在呼吗？
你曾否在乎过吗？！
当我亲眼看着你把我们的承诺给毁了!
毁了!!!
我能不恨你吗？
为何要我这样做？
WHY ?
恨一个人好辛苦 !
恨一个深爱的人， 更是痛彻心扉 !
你知道吗?
如果我恨你就好像我在自己的心上
捅上一把刀!
我有必要吗 ? 好矛盾 !
最终， 我发现 . . . .
我不能和你 ... 不是因为我不想 ~
只是我的心已被你刺得
死了 ....
MY LOVE HAD BLEED OFF ...
我们的承诺 ...
恨一个人， 难吗？
或许好容易 ...
可是，恨一个深爱的人 ... 并不容易~~
我曾尝试过，
放手，流泪；
心痛，想念；
痛恨，舍不得 . . .
最后 ... 还是无奈的无法自拔 ~
曾恨过，又怎样呢？
如果真恨过 ...
会舍不得吗？
会想念吗？
会心痛吗？
心好痛 ! ! ! !
我的心在滴血 !
你知道吗？
若知道! 你在呼吗？
你曾否在乎过吗？！
当我亲眼看着你把我们的承诺给毁了!
毁了!!!
我能不恨你吗？
为何要我这样做？
WHY ?
恨一个人好辛苦 !
恨一个深爱的人， 更是痛彻心扉 !
你知道吗?
如果我恨你就好像我在自己的心上
捅上一把刀!
我有必要吗 ? 好矛盾 !
最终， 我发现 . . . .
我不能和你 ... 不是因为我不想 ~
只是我的心已被你刺得
死了 ....
MY LOVE HAD BLEED OFF ...
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