I.. Already forget "You" and love "Him"...

Maybe last time you let me can't to forget...

But now is the time tat I always waiting for....

Is....

I GIVE UP...

Sometimes maybe I still will miss you...

but it doesn't mean that I still love you...

Sometimes maybe I still will feel hurt because you...

but it also doesn't mean that I love you...

I believed that you been treat good to me...

I believed that you been take care on me...

I also believed that till now you still will think of me...

I confirm it...

But... thank you...

Thanks your care, thanks your warm...

I will never forget... ^^

*This the msgs for "You"...

Friends...

Christina, Kai Ting, Joane, Adeline, Kelly, Lum, Ke Jing, and more...

Now I sure that I really give up...

and I hope you all can done just as me...

And now I love...

Maxson Wong...

你的改变，我的坚持

你真心爱的对象，是爱你的人吗？
我...并不是～


他是我第一个“掏心掏肺”爱上的...
到目前为止.. 仍是唯一一个...


爱他的路上... 好辛苦...
让我尝试了一个“单恋”的痛苦..
我好想麻醉自己，不让自己再想你...
但我不能...

为了你，我破戒..
我主动向你告白..
可是你没给我答案，但却又无时无刻地关心我..
那段日子好幸福..我珍惜...

为了你..我破戒..
专心的爱你..
不接受任何示爱者的影响，但你一点儿也不在乎...
好痛苦...你到底对我有否好感？...


不久后...你去了国外...
那段期间，我怎么找你..
你就不回复我...反而回复其他人~
好心痛...

你回国后，我仍在找你...
可是...你变了..
变得好凶，好无情..
一个月...你的一句话..
让我流了一个月的泪水..
就一句

“PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME”

好伤!!好痛!!你懂吗?!
或许你不会懂...因为是我自作多情～
算了，放了，到此为止～

一切停止吧...

傻的是我不是你

过了好久...
我的心，不知何时开始...
对你...对爱..没反应了...

过了好久...
我的世界，不知何时开始...
不再为你...而公转...

渐渐习惯...
没有你的陪伴...
或许，时间真的会把感情冲淡；
把想念吹散，但...
却抚平不了我心中的伤痛...



我好傻...
一相情愿，爱上你...
压根不理你不爱我；不曾对我动心，
我活该～
我好傻...

一厢情愿，爱上你...
明知你心根本没有我；还硬着头皮撑下去，
任你说狠话；任你伤害，到最后...
你对我反感...

我活该～



或许时间真能冲淡这一切...
可又何能把曾经爱你的感觉...
收回来呢？

爱，不爱...都辛苦～
如今，停止了反应...是时候...

还你灵魂的自由，还我空虚的心灵；
给你最后的温柔，是我离去的身影～

我不想再改变了

够了，累了，停止吧！Winnie..
不要在为别人改了。

我很累～天天要笑在脸上，哭在心里
我很累～天天要很热情，却又冷漠
我很累～天天要忍气吞声，却想爆发
我很累～天天要做乖小孩，却又想反抗
我很累～明明很爱他，却要装作无所谓
我很累～明明想坦率点，却又不想去伤人..
我很累...我很累..就因为别人的一句话..
“不要这样自以为是啦！”
若我还能像以前..
想哭就哭；想冷血就有多冷血；
想骂就骂；想反抗就反抗；
想爱就彻彻底底的爱；
想说就说～该有多好..
可是..我还能这样吗？

朋友..有件事必须告诉你..
真实的我其实是很脆弱的..我累了..
不要再改变了..可以吗？
可以...
借你的肩膀靠一靠吗？
可以..
借你的胸膛哭一哭吗？
可以..
借你的耳朵听去我诉苦吗？
可以吗？
之前，至少有个“他”帮我..
可是现在“他”离开了...

我不想改变了..
因为就算我改或不改..
大家都无动于衷..
父母都不会理会..
到最后，忍的，痛的，伤的..也是我自己～
若我不改..
至少我有发泄的空间..
对吧？

所以，从今以后..
谁也别想得到我真心问候，除了我爱的人～
因为我会比我小学更冷血..
Cause..
I just want to be.. what I want to be...
And won't change .. anymore!!!
Cause...
I'm TIRED!!

Im waiting for someone...

for you...
The one I like~
I know you don't like me...
But I'm waiting...

For you...
The one I know...
Know that we just friend...
But I'm waiting...

For you...
The only one~
I'm waiting for someone...again...

I'm not a perfect girl...

But...I can change...
I'm a playgirl...
When I was "clear single"...
No purpose...

But I'll be a focus girl...
When i got my own purpose...

Now that I don't know...
But I'll waiting...wait till some day I'm tired and give up naturally...

Last time, I've been wait for another...
But...no condusion~~2 years...
I thought I will not wait for others again...
But I'm not~~

You was the second that I wait...And the one that
I'm looking for now...
I promise myself to WAIT IT FOR YOU...

My tears will not fall for you again...

xx...I admit I been loved you...
But it's gone...

my tears wont fall for you...
My heart wont pain for you...
My emotion wont lost control again...

Two years...
Its not long or short~
But I've lifted up...
Thanks so much...

Now I'm single...
Now I'm waiting for another...
Now I'm not your anyone else...
Thanks so much...

Thanks for care about me...
Thanks for accepted my fault...
Thanks in every things...
Gor~ Or not again...
Thanks...

'单思'是种病。。。

单思是种病。。。
感觉是。。。什么？

一时是甜甜的，
因为我想起他那无邪的笑容。

一时是酸酸的，
因为我想起他压根对我没感觉。

全都是我一厢情愿。。。

单思病的口味。。。
我发掘了~~
是黄梨+哈蜜瓜的滋味。。。
不妨试一试。。。

这味道是有一天，
我在食堂思念‘你’时，
犯了单思所发明的。。。

单思病很美妙。。。
即使痛苦也感到满足~~

‘你’选择继续做朋友。。。
那我只好选择沉没在单思中。。。
回首一切的喜悦
因为单思就是一种。。。

美好的病。。。

My Tomatoes Land~~ MuaksSs

Hello~~ Long Time no blogging already...

So today back here to write blog... XD

Haha... Just now morning, I just back from Papar.

Damn hot there you know?...

but I think you don't know lar.. haha~

I go there to help my daddy "Tanam" his tomatoes...

Not yet got tomato, because we just started garden it...

Besides, also got Cilies... Wow!! got Thailand Cilies, "Cili Padi"

and many o~ Love this land so much XD...

haha~ Haiy... But tomorrow wanna back school for study already~

Damn boring lo... got assembly again... So hot at the hall...

Many homework again... Haiy~~~

So I need to say GOODBYE to my tomatoes and see them next week lo..... T,T

Broken Heart

Love a ppl so hard,
Need a ppl to accept is more hard...
Now that I relized... I'm not a good girl...

Me... Single
Me... Just broken heart
Me... Won't belive in LOVE again!

Love... Let me feel tired
Love... Make me so crazy
Love... Let me BROKE MY WHOLE HEART...

Don't tell me about LOVE!!!
I hate it SO MUCH!!!

Stop to say who love who!
Listen a LOVE word, I will DIE~
I hate LOVE... I cried~but no tears...
I shout but no sound...
I Hits myself but not pain...
I scold myself but no feel...

That's why I Had BROKEN HEART...

Today So Moody~

Today So Moody~

Because got somethings want to do but can't do it...

Actually today I want give a people a lollipop..
But he didn't follow bus today... HaiyZ...

Unlucky today...Get Notice Letter from teacher... T,T
HaiyZ... So boring today~


Now I very miss someone, I still not yet normal...

HaiyZ....
왜? 왜요... 왜 난 사랑 당신해??

Today Didn't meet you...

Hai~~ I'm back....
Rainning here... Didn't meet you today...
But I still happy...

Because... I can chart with you...
Today damn crazy at class.. 2 Berdikari play hits hands...
Haha~ Friends hits me so much... Pain you know??
But happy in my heart... XD

Haha... Today~ many people cried at class.. saw them cried..
I also want to cry... Don't know why...


Friends... don't cry... Please~
I'm here...

Today finish school I didn't meet him... So sad~

Why I always like this? He still don;t know I like him...
Why I always so easy to like a paople... Am I really like him?
I don't know...
If one day he knew I like him... Do him will stay away from me??
Do him will feel shock?
Do him will accept me??

I'm scare now... Scare to let him know...
Scare he like my last time...
Scare he will stay away from me and don't care me anymore...
I scare...

Who can help me and tell me what to do?
Friends... ? I think just myself can help it...
I try~~~

Hope I can be Normal back soon ^^

Can't smile without YOU~ TQ!

Hai~ I'm here for blogging.. haha~ Today I'm still miss HIM~

Didn't see him today, maybe he didn't follow bus~~ OPS~~ Hehe~~

I got some creat by my self~ Down there!! Hope all of you like it...

爱～ 有多难？

爱～ 有多甜蜜？

爱～ 有多让人受伤？

但爱～ 永远需要两个人去守护。。。

爱情， 亲情， 和友情

你懂得分辨吗？

我不晓得～

但我。。。我还不懂。。。

我们往往在受伤了之后，

不敢再去爱。

因为怕受伤害～

可是现在的我明白了～

我不会再因为一个不爱我的人，

继续傻傻的等待。。。

不会再因为曾经受过的伤害，

就把自己封闭起来～

所以。。。我能放下之前的伤害，

爱上了你～～

但愿你能为了我，

不再去想过去痛苦的回忆，

接纳我，接纳爱。。。好吗？

-THE END-

This the massage for someone~ Hope he can read it...

This is from my heart~ Real voice...

Friends~ Hope you all like it ^^

Today~~ No Mood~~ Yesterday dad take my phone.. Hate it so much~~ Want find "You", but no phone.. I thing "You" still don't know that I like you~~ You old me so much~ Maybe you will not like me.. Haiy.. So hurt now~~ My dad say want sent me to KL or INDONESIA~~ I hate it~~ I love here~~ KOTA KINABALU.. I'm lonely, nobody can help me... XXX~~ Miss You So~~ Although not same school... Haiy~~ Hard to say... Friend~ If i gone~~ Please be happy~~ Last, EXXX WXXX YXXX BXXX~~ I Like You~